I’ve been AWOL for a while and I felt like I should do a short blog post to explain my disappearance and to make preemptive excuses for any future relinquishing of my website, social media, email, writing and general life responsibilities.
In a nutshell, my mental health sucks at the moment. I’m working on it, but NHS therapy waiting lists are long and the process of finding the right medication is a nightmare. I’m finding communication with other people – even via the internet – really difficult. So, if I’ve not replied to a comment, a message or an email of yours over the past few weeks, or you’ve noticed that I haven’t left any likes and comments on your blog for a while, don’t take it personally. I’m trying to get back on track and into the real (and internet) world again but I’m up and down like a yoyo on a bungee cord so who knows when I’ll manage to get back to normal.
Here are some mundane things that have happened recently:
- I turned another year older and celebrated by eating nachos and watching Homeward Bound II for what must be the hundredth time in my life.
- I had to turn down really cool writing opportunities because my brain’s a bastard and can’t take the pressure.
- I bought a new desk and computer chair and now my home office looks suave as hell (not that I have had much use out of it yet due to my stupid brain), but my swish new black chair became coated with ginger cat fluff within 3 hours of it being in the house.
- I chewed my lovely long fingernails down to ragged little stumps and now my typing rhythm sounds far less tappety-tappy and more thuddedy-thuddy, which is a shame.
- My local council finally started collecting plastic recyclables and gave us wheelie bins with hot pink lids which make the streets look like Barbie’s home turf on bin day.
I know, I know, my existence is thrilling.
Thanks for sticking around, folks. You might see me lurking about and catching up with everyone’s writing and maybe, if I can really get my shit together, posting some new fiction over the next couple of weeks.
Here’s a picture of my ridiculous little dog looking joyous to have been given a massive bone that, over the course of several weeks, she managed to eat in its entirety. May it bring you a smile and remind you that big things can be conquered, even if they give you jaw ache and a bad case of the runs in the process.
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